I've had a good couple of weeks. I have been rather tired and also had quite a lot on, so haven't managed to get here to post. The trip out around various villages with my father, described in my last post, was successful, and a lovely day out to boot. We didn't find anywhere that really clicked with me, but this in itself was helpful as it gave me more of an idea of what it might be like to live in such a place, and gave me some places with which to compare the small town near my sister which looks to be the best place to focus on.
I'm definitely keen to move to a smaller location, and the place near my sister looks to be ideal for me in many ways, so we're going to concentrate on that. An exciting possiblility.
In addition, I was privileged to get hold of two tickets to the first test against West Indies at Lord's, for the first and third days. It was a real stretch of my capabilities, but I managed it and now, although pretty tired, do not feel that I've overstretched myself to the point where it is going to be a problem or lead to a relapse. I absolutely love cricket so it was wonderful to be able to go. It wasn't great play on either day, but both were enjoyable days out.
To cap things off, when I returned from Lord's last night, there was an envelope waiting for me containing an advance copy of the book I've been working on over the past few months. It's a book written by a friend, which I've designed and produced. This was a highly enjoyable project to work on and I'm delighted – and quite proud – of the finished product.
It does strike me as odd that I've been able to successfully produce this book – a highly skilled and involved piece of work – when I can't even sort out or even understand my finances or manage to pay bills properly. It does seem that the effects of CFS are more marked in some types of mental activity than others. I suppose this is an obvious point, but it does seem odd – and a bit unfair, really – that I can't do something I need to do in order to look after myself and remain independent when I'm able to perform a different type of task at a far higher level of intricacy. I try and take real pleasure in the things I am able to do rather than become upset about the things I am not able to do, but this is not always easy.