I'm not sleeping again. Since Saturday my whole body has been on edge: trembling, tingling, itching, heart racing, not being able to sleep. I've had all of these symptoms before but a new one for me is my teeth have, overnight, become incredibly sensitive, such that when I try and brush them it's near agony. As soon as the toothpaste touches them my head is screaming. Also my sense of smell is on overdrive at the moment; someone used a hand wipe near me earlier this afternoon and I almost gagged, same when someone in the same train carriage was eating some crisps, and other occasions. I don't exactly know what's going on, but it feels as though I've switched on the "alert"/adrenalin button by overdoing things and now my body can't find the off switch. (I've noticed this throughout the course of my illness, but not this strongly; and usually, doing relaxation routines helps to get it calmed down, but that isn't working this time.) I did get rather carried away on Saturday and drank a lot more ale than I wanted to, and might have put my system into shock by doing this. Of course I don't know that the booze caused this; I'm just reporting the progression of events.
I'm also very cross and upset right now. I am due a reflexology session this afternoon and the practitioner has just called to cancel, for the second week in a row. That's annoying enough, but it does tend to happen when I most need the support the treatment brings me. I was depending on it as a last resort to hopefully get me some sleep tonight, now I'm faced with the prospect of another long haul through the dark hours. Can barely keep my eyes open at the moment as they are so tired and sore, I'm exhausted but still can't feel in the least bit drowsy. Grrr (and daggers to the reflexologist).
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12/06/07 @ 17:59