Haven't posted for six months, because I've been busy and have also been so well, on the whole, that CFS and this blog have been far from my mind. Which has been great. Have spent a lot of time over the past six months with my lover, which has been just wonderful and quite a change for me.
About six weeks ago, however, I went rapidly downhill, and have been extremely unwell since then. I think this is because I caught the bug that's doing the rounds, and it seems that my immune system is not currently as strong as it had been earlier this year, so I have been feeling the symptoms of CFS rather than of the bug. But as it is (I think) caused by the bug rather than being a relapse for any other reason, I've not been too worried about it.
My sleep has continued to be a major problem. I'm still suffering badly from insomnia, and lie awake for hours with my body itching, aching, throbbing etc. The sleep I get tends not to be refreshing. This seems like a last bastion; if I can find a way to conquer it, it should help me move towards better health in the long term.
It has been quite a shock to the system to be so limited again, after such a sustained period of good health and activity. I've been confined to my house for the past few weeks, bar one day last week when my mother came over and took me for a drive through the countryside, which was invigorating and refreshing. I was feeling a bit stronger yesterday and managed to go for a walk around the block, but again today my knees feel extremely wobbly, and I'm not sure I'll make it out at all. Will try in half an hour or so.
I had got to the point just before this happened where I had been feeling well enough for long enough that I was confident enough to start making enquiries about getting back to work. I hope I'll be able to achieve this in the new year, once I've got over this bout of ill health.
I'll aim to come back to this blog more regularly now, and muse on some of the issues and questions CFS brings, some of which I’ve raised before.
